Plz note: I am not writing a english essay so don't expect it to be error free cause i'm not perfect. Unless u have sth u can't totally understand, i'll make an exception and tell me!!!

I was once in love with a GAL. I believe in love at first sight, but this surely wasn't the case. Sure she is pretty but who isn't??. Its everything about her that made me sink to the bottom of the sea. I was basically love sick.

I love thee, but thee does not love me. Has the world gone mad or is it just me....maybe!!!. I think of her every minute every hour of the day. U might think thats obsession but i call it love. We r living two worlds apart and seems impossible to even become boyfriend girlfriend situation. But that doesn't stop me thinking what its like if we get together??? happiness, sadness or maybe something else?. I keep thinking towards the future and what we become...do we have a future??. These r the question i keep asking myself but never seem to find an answer!! Ohh GOD help me!!!.

Why can't i just tell her how i really feel?? Answer: I can't!!! Friendship always comes first to me...and thats why i can never tell her how i really feel!!! Although i don't know her very well but we remain friends which is important. But lets say we did get together....hmmm at first it seems i'm in heaven i could just picture it....but later how can u stop something which is destine to happen and that is break up from the simplest things....( u can think can't u???) and that preciest friendship will be lost forever. Its just the way it is i guest u could always be friends after??? but thats just wishful thinking. But not telling her how i feel is even worst...it only made things much much worst. Its very hard and u r just torn from inside out.

I want to tell her soo much. But i'm a chicken and chicken is a chicken (u get the point). The test is conclusive as u can see for u'reself. I have no idea whatsoever how to tell her that i love her. I guess what i'm afraid of is the outcome.....we could get together or we could become the worst enemy. And i guess some of u knows what i mean.

We use to have such good times. I want to laugh and smile at jokes like i use to. But that was before when i fell in love, and ever since things have never been the same. I want that back!!!!. Why did i fall in love with her, why did i not control my feelings?? And at the end of all this is only heart broken and heart ache. Ohh what a mess...is this a mistake??. Can i turn back time, or should i even turn back time if i can?

The True Ending!

Some people already knows who i'm talking about....please keep u're mouth shut!! Thank u!!! And people don't ask me for who this person is because there is no way i'm telling anyone.!!!

Soooo what do u think???. Sooooo sad i know!!!. if u have any comments or advice email me on [email protected]    If u don't like it and think its crap then say why and how i can improve?